Tuesday, June 30, 2009

oWIE

hEADACHES= PAIN
PAIN= BAD
BAD=NOT FUN
im not a fan of any of the above.

politicians.. in general? from: Blind Anger And Hate

Telling lies, making promises that they can't keep
left or right they're all the same to me
lost faith in the people that are here to lead us
one way or another they always seem to let me down
people suffer, see frustration building up
acts of racism and crime is what comes out of this
time to act against the problems that we're facing
try to prevent a generation from going down the drain
empty words and broken promises has got to end
get your credibility back before it's too late
a change of scenery is something that we all need
lost our trust it's time for you to gain it back
you gotta shapen up pull your shit together
can't fuck with our lives forever and ever
put our trust in you to make things work
and what do you do you go act like a jerk
i will never put my trust in you
cause i can so easily see you through
with your empty words and broken promises
promise one thing and you give us this
can't go on with our lives on hold
ordinary people left out in the cold
your worlds of lies are about to crack
you lost our trust it's time to gain it back

tired..

i am so tired, and so hungry.
im dying inside!!
poop.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Bachalorette

I just watched it tonight, it was soooo intense, heres the run down:
Okay the bachalorette is Jillian from BC, shes super pretty, super easy going, trusting, and pretty awesome.
Of course, she was rejected last year by Jason, the Bachalor last year, because she was looking for her 'best friend" to be her husband, and Jason said "but i want more".. butt head.
Anyways, She is sooo totally awesome, and this week she was down to five guys:
Reid: this very handsome realtor
Jesse: a goodlooking guy who owns a wine business
Wes: A musician whose ulterior motive is to promote his new country cd he's come out with (soo many guys have warned jILlian about him: he's said things like "i have a girl back home" , "ive been here for so many weeks, it doesnt even matter if i stay here anymore, ive done what i have come to do".. so many people have warned her about him, but of course, he's deff a charmer, and she's wayy to in like with this guy)
Michael: a super fun guy who is a break dancing instructor, though he is a bit younger than the others
Kyptin: a fabulous.. business man? i dont even know, all i know is, Jillian was cooking in the kitchen and he came up behind her and did that thing, where he starts doing the sexy neck kissing thing !!(eee!!!!!:)) he's uber fabulous, and i'm rooting for him, he is deff a good guy!:)
Okay, so today was home town visits:
first was reid, jillian and the family seemed to really get along and they seemed to have fun
Same as Jesse, though his brother was all awkward and asked her if Jesse and her had ever been "naked together"
Lol.. but she seemd to get along great with them.
Kyptin, comes from a very wealthy family.. which was kinda intimidating...I mean, they pulled up to a beautiful house, and his parents ask jillian to try two different lasagnas and two different wines. One wine and wine lasagna is made by kyptin's dad, and the otehrs.. are not. Jillian had to identify the "better one" O GOD. so intimidating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Fortunately, she got both of them right!!! Once again, everyone seemed to get along well
Michael, the young breakdancer, has a twin brother!! and they are identical!!!!!!!!It was kinda funny because michael and his brother switched clothes and tried to pretend that they were eachother, but jillian could tell!
Wes. Okay, well.. this one is kinda weird..
Last week, the most perfect man was kicked off the bachalorette. Jake. The smokin smokin smokin Commercial Piolot, who is pretty much the most perfect man on the planet got kicked off. He was madly in love with jillian, and yet she didnt feel it i guess... Anywyas, Jake and bad - boy Wes were sorta friends during there time, and Wes told Jake that he has a girlfrined, laurel, back home..
Jake flew back to Texas, where Wes's hometown is, to tell Jillian, before Wes and Jillian meet Wes' family that Wes has a girlfriend.
He was sooo sweet. He told her first off, im not here for a rose.
He then couldnt even say it.
Eventually he told her, and he told her, because he wants to see jillian to be happy, and he couldnt sleep at night if he didnt tell her.
So, he told her, and then Jillian confronted Wes, and he said he doesnt have a girlfriend..
So she decided, not to listent o Jake because she always likes to think the best of people.
God god god.
Sorry jillian but thats not the best decision.
She met wes' family adn was further convinced of her decision.
THEN, the plot thickens!
Ed, this guy that she really REALLY liked, from a few weeks back, had to leave the competition because if he didnt, he would get fired.
She was really upset, but then! after all this drama, Ed comes knocking at her door for a second chance!!!
I really like ed, he's sweet, honest and just soo pretty!:) hes fabby!
Anyways, she told him to be at the rose ceremony.
Of course after that she starts FREAKING out, internally i guess, and wondering who she will kick off.
She wasnt sure about ed, because it wouldnt be fair to the other guys, and he's behind now etc..
but in the end she decided to kick off Jesse and Michael.
Which was shocking really.
I mean, i expected her to kick off ed. i like ed, but i thought she kinda decided, but apparently im wrong.
That kick off didnt bother me though, i didnt really care for young breakdancer michael and winemaker jesse.
I mean.. they were goodlooking and nice and all, but.. meh.
i dunno.
Anywyas,
Theres a preview for next week, and Wes and Jillian are on a one on one date, and wes slips out the words "My girlfriend" and then quickly says "i mean, my ex-girlfriend"...
Oo0o0o0o0o0o0o0
DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA!!!
I'm really hoping that.. well.. anyone but Wes will end up with her.
Seriosuly, i like all the other guys except for Wes.
he is pretty much the scum of the earth.
I hate him so bad!
Gosh, i'm wayyy too emotionally invested into this show.
Lol:P
rightio.
Anyways,
Hope everything works out for Jillian,a nd she finds someone who truely cares about her!

ALONE .

OMG
WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO WITHOUT J IN THE ARTS?!?!!?
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?
*PANIC ATTACK*
*HYPERVENTALATES*
WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO?!!?!?!?!?
this is not good, not good at all.

materialistic me

i'm honestly soo sooo materialistic.. and i think its society's fault.
Yep.
Society.
oHwell..
being materialistic isnt the worst problem in the world to have right?

Saturday, June 27, 2009

the dress

My grandmother gave me a gorgeous red dress today.
its casual, jersey-ish material.. but an older style.
its a bit big.. but i like it.
i like it oodles lots.
So i have decided to make it my summer project, to try and alter it to fit me:).


(lol i bet next year this time, it wont be altered, but hey, ive got goals:))